sometimes.

i haven’t said anything about michael jackson at all since he passed, but i read something today that really stuck with me.  maybe it’s true, maybe it’s not, but it was about his relationship with brooke shields and how he asked her to marry him on multiple occasions.  she would always say no, but insisted that he didn’t have to marry her, she would be in his life forever.  she said she thought he asked because he was afraid he would lose her; he wanted to do everything he could to hang on to the things that mattered most to him.

sometimes i get really scared of certain people in my life disappearing.  leaving because they want to.  not loving me the way i love them, not caring as much as i care.  not feeling the way i feel.

sometimes i feel like i am all alone, and no one could ever relate to me the way i want them to.

the idea of marrying anyone i love for the purpose of “making them stay” is something i can completely wrap my head around.  it’s how i feel sometimes.

marrying someone usually means that PERSON, your person, stands up in front of the world and says that yes, they are crazy about you and don’t ever want to live without you.

why is that sentiment mostly reserved for marriage or romantic relationships?

i know i can’t go around asking everyone i love to marry me, but sometimes i want to.